hollow hearts and tormented dreams

So this asshole breaks off our engagement, says that he cant love just one person, or just fuck one person, and that he just wants to be friends. I am suffering and begging him to just try and make it work, not knowing that he has never gotten over his ex and has been sending her love messages online. We live the next month of arguments and periods of peace, me attempting to get over him as fast as I could so I could salvage some shred of friendship out of this broken heart. I loved him and gave up money, furniture, my time with my son to try and make a life with him and he threw me away for some bitch that dumped him. But she loves him now. And he kept lying to me about their relationship, and where he was going. He drinks more, parties more, and doesn't want to be around kids now. He turned into this asshole who lies about everything. Now I tried to stay, then I asked for him to do the right thing by me and let me have the apartment so I could stay in Houston and not lose everything I worked so hard for. I am graduated from school and about to get my license for hairdressing and looking for a job. Everything has come to a point in my life and it was so hard to get here. I am scared. He is kicking me out since the apartment bills are in his name and he doesn't feel like moving and his girlfriend is moving in may. Not that he cant move but he doesn't feel like it. I didn't cheat on him with my ex, I didn't lie to him and try to move her in while he lives with me like he did to me, I didn't lie to my friends and work. I just tried to forgive him and still despite it all be his fucking friend. I am a fucking idiot. He makes himself feel better by acting like I am a bitch and that he is a victim. I'm so sick of being lied to, manipulated, hurt, just thrown away like I never mattered. I'm tired of being fucked with by these guys who play mind games claiming that they want a family and a beautiful wife who loves them. They would rather run around having sex with multiple people, drinking and having a different girl every night. They would rather be with the girls that hurt them and use them just like they hurt and used me. Good riddance. Hope you like std's cause you are going to catch something fucking everybody like that. Hope you like having your heart broken cause karma is a bitch and this time when she leaves you I wont be there to pick up the pieces like last time. Play your games with some other woman's life cause I don't with little boys like you. You and that bad eyeliner and little dick. Have fun with it cause I didn't. There is such a thing as too small. Now I am just focusing on my needs and my baby. He is all that matters. I need to find a salon job that pays really well and quick! I need to find a place to live. If I can't then its back to square one at my mom and dads for a while. I need to try or else i will feel like i am a failure.